paper thoughts

Minor interlude.
Sunday, 31 August 2008 @ 18:32

I don't know whether being like this is healthy or productive[not RE-PRODUCTIVE! get y' minds outta th' gutta!] but I'm praying like mad that he'll turn up on Tuesday. Seriously.

Anyway, do check out WALL.E some time this holiday if you're free. It's a cute show and you definitely won't be worse off for not watching it. If you're looking for mindless animated action and/or are a diehard fan of anything Star Wars-related, I'm sure you won't mind paying for tickets to The Clone Wars. I caught it yesterday and I'm still traumatised by the god-awful lame jokes the clone-robot things were cracking. I've never heard anything more stupid in an animated movie in my entire life. Totally a 3-star rating X:

Alright, that's all I wanna say for t'day ;3

Mood: Okay...
Music: Break - Decyfer Down

Teachers' Day, Part 2.
Saturday, 30 August 2008 @ 22:04

[cont. from previous post]
So, after ACES Day, we had our Teachers' Day Celebration and the performances were realllllyyyy cool. I shan't even attempt to elaborate on its coolness.

Got back our progress report slips after the performance and I am quite proud to announce that I managed to score 4 A1s and a B3. However, try to ask me bout' my Chinese results and unless you're a bestie, I will bite off your head.
Literally.

Anyway, heading back to HIPS and what happened afterwards was hands down the best part of the day. We stuck around until 3-something, hanging out in our old classroom, disturbing teachers [mainly WuLaoShi & Ms. Ng] and generally having an awesome time catching up with everyone. It was so fun 'vandalising' the whiteboard with the markers our lovely juniors left us. In addition to the stuff the current R5ians wrote, we added in lots of stuff like, 'HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY FROM UR SENIORS', 'MISS NG, GET MARRIED SOON AND INVITE US TO YOUR WEDDING!' AND 'COME TO ...'. I contributed by drawing multiple logos of Batman XD

After taking massive numbers of group photos, all of us finally headed over to Hougang Mall to take neoprints. UNFORTUNATELY, the machine was spoiled so we ended up in Mac since some of us Huisi and either Titus or Zachus hadn't had lunch yet.

Gawd, it was so good just sitting there and talking. Two hours that we will never be able to replicate. I'm sure to all those 'in the know', understand why it was pretty much the best two hours of my life.

Talking to Z. made everything feel closer than ever and GOD, it was so awesome. So, so awesome.


To read the total and complete account of what happened at HIPS, read Clarine's blog here.


CLARINNNEEE! :D

jiahching (:

audrey :3

shaoxuan.

tit-us XD [just joking!]

grumpy wilson.

timo-thy ;D

random person who I can't remember now.

zachus looking really horrible in this picture.

emmanuel XD

shuhan who's not crying, sneezing or coughing but just being shy.

random photo of everyone standing around outside R5. [I can only recognize Huisi and Zachus -.0]

audrey, tania, tanying & jaclyn (:

awful photo taken by one of the guys in side-view. I look AWW-FULLL D:

clarine taken by surprise, therefore the retarded face XD

clarine posing for her picture this time round'.

group picture of the ones who stuck round' till 3pm. I was taking the photo, along with shuhan (:

Teachers' Day!
Friday, 29 August 2008 @ 21:59

ZOMG, TODAY WAS SO FUNNNNN ;D :D <3!
Best Teachers' Day ever, okay? -grins manically-
This'll be a long post so I suggest getting a bag of chips like the one I've got now first.

ACES Day was fun. I got really hyper doing it, even though I only ran once. I suppose it's because that during my first run, my shoe was like, really loose, so loose that it was pretty much off my foot by half of the lap. So, me, being the thick-skinned person that I am, actually took the shoe that was coming out in the middle of the race and ran half-bare footed and only clad in socks which were beginning to have holes. When I got back to the starting point, I was like, "LOOK, EVERYONE! NO SHOE! YAY! :D"

Quite understandably, the only response I got back was, "Eh, can I drink your water?"

=.=

[continuation of post tomorrow cause' I'm about half-asleep here. Till the morrow, ay?]

Theme Park Theology.
Wednesday, 27 August 2008 @ 22:48

Gah.

Today was a rollercoaster.
Down in Science, Up in Lit, Down in English, Steep drop in Chinese and the other 30mins CLS spent talking to me and then UP-UP-UP! for the time we spent terrorizing the teachers in the Home Econ. Lab. It was like, darn hilarious, I tell you.

Rachael was more than overzealous in decorating the brownie with icing so what should've been :
___________________________________ became
---________---------````````~~~~~~~~~~__. I kept on screaming, "No, RACHAEL! STOPPIT, STOPPIT! IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE SQUIGGLY!"

Quite a comedy.

Anyway, I'm just here to post an update since I've realised that people are coming to my blog, even though they aren't commenting. Would the anonymous people please stand up?

Mood: Something that means happy and sad at the same time.
Music: This Man - Jeremy Camp

Poetic fancy.
Saturday, 23 August 2008 @ 22:22

131st post today and it's only going to be a poem. I want comments on it, people! I'm begging you here!

[P.S: Went for dinner today and we sat at Table 13! Coincidence, no?]


Watching
You through a sheet of cellophane
hurts
more than any other Hell could.

Our
Eyes meet from across the room,
lingering.
Do you still care for me?

Backs
Pressed up hard against each other.
Fate
has a sadistic sense of humor.

(c) Kimberly Ang

All this energy has to go somewhere.
Friday, 22 August 2008 @ 18:22

Kinda hiiiiiighhhhhhhh t'day. I blame the skittles Yanling gave me. Correction, the SKITTLE Yanling gave me. It was the lime green type and made me unbelievably hyper, even sustaining me through Lit. I think it's a miracle sweet :3

Other than my crack-ish behaviour, there really is nothing much to talk about. WAIT! There is!

H: "Eh, the circuit run, you carry the 4kg bag, okay?"
K: "Yah, I carry the bag. Then you carry me."
H: "NO! I don't want to carry you. So heavy...."
K: "Okay lah, you carry the bag. Then I carry you." -pause-
"If you want, I'll tie a string around your leg and drag you along with the bag so that you won't need to run. Sound good?"

- HuiYing and me on the subject of who'll be carrying the 4kg bag on ACES Day.

Laugh, you idiots, laugh.

Anehwhay, it's been ages since I've had an icon post. Here's one now.



Mood: HIIIGGGHHHHHHHH
Music: We Live - Superchic[k]

Apologies.
Wednesday, 20 August 2008 @ 21:20

SUPER DUPER UBER BIG BLOOD-STAINED APOLOGY TO THE LOVERLY YANLING.
I DIDN'T MEAN TO MAKE YOU CRY.
FORGIVE ME?

I think tomorrow's gonna be horribly embarrassing and guilt-filled since we're finally gonna be getting our CL papers back and CLS hinted that the someone who failed was the same someone who could actually do well hasn't been doing well recently, leaving her puzzled. I've got a bad, bad feeling she's talking about me D:

Literature was chaotic as usual and it made me severely pissed off, especially when everyone went, "Oh, it's Literature, Kim. It's always this noisy. Why get so worked up about it?"

Honestly, I could have strangled them.

I mean - there's our Lit. teacher trying oh-so-hard to explain the method of analysing an unseen poem and the entire class isn't taking any notice of her. Isn't that rather screwed up? [I'll break your neck if you say no >X ]

GAWD.

Mood: Bordering on Cranky
Music: The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script

Unasked for.
Monday, 18 August 2008 @ 19:37

GET WELL SOON, HUIYING (:

Today was crappy. Again.

Headaches, unstable stomachs and boring Science lessons afflicted all of us and I swear - if I have to sit through another powerpoint presentation about experiments on photosynthesis, I'm gonna either fall asleep or tell the teacher, "Sir, I think it's quite apparent that you're boring us to death. Could you get to the point, please?"

I'm serious here.

Anyway, I saw Anthia at church yesterday. She was wearing a purple v-neck shirt that looked suspiciously like something I had in my closet. It was kinda funny and embarrassing even though she [probably!] couldn't see me. If you can see the joke in it, I think we should be soulmates. If you can't, whatever XP.

Oh g-d, why am I blogging when I've got a Literature test to study for? -scrambles off computer-

Tahs, darling C;

Mood: Confiding
Music: Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends - FOB

Insomnia
Saturday, 16 August 2008 @ 00:48

It's 12.49am and I'm still awake. Even though I've got an early morning tomorrow. Can you say 'insomnia'?

Went for Assumption mass today and felt exceptionally good about my religion, even though the priest's homily was about as interesting as boiled cabbage. Nevertheless, it made me feel more secure, like there was something or someone up there who actually gave a damn about me and what I was going through right now.

Knowing that someone cares about me makes me feel all warm and snuggly inside (:

P.S To R: Sorry if I came across as unthoughtful today when you lost your pencil case and HS notes. It's just that it was a test, y'know? Tests come first. No hard feelings, okay?

To G: Thanks for listening while I rambled on and on and on about the pointlessness of Life [FYI: I am NOT suicidal x.x]. I'm sure you had better things to do.

Mood: Insomniatic
Music: Little Superhero - Corrine May

Exam Depression.
Wednesday, 13 August 2008 @ 20:38

I WANT YOU
I NEED YOU
OH BABY
OH BABY.

-stares miserably at a rainbow sprinkle-covered chocolate tart-

D:

Mood:
Music: Your Winter - Sister Hazel

Soliloquy
Monday, 11 August 2008 @ 10:23

Looking back on my recent posts, I think I must've been drunk whenever I talked about my current NON! relationship with that guy. Really, that must be the only explanation since I'm pretty sure I wasn't sober. Then again, I shouldn't be so quick to say so since:

"It is the habit of children and drunkards to point out that the emperor is naked." - The Sandman
&
“A drunk man's tongue is a sober man's mind.”
So are they my thoughts? Very much. The question is, however, was I thinking when I said them or were they just little things that popped out of nowhere because I didn't feel like sharing all the cool stuff in my life with the world?

Heh. You decide.

Mood: OverANALytical
Music: Breathe - Michelle Branch

Sunday, 10 August 2008 @ 22:57

And now I'm learning to live, learning to live
I'm learning to live on without
having your love returning
I can't have it all
but all that I want is you
You remain in the twilight
with eyes that look but don't see
and I'm a book lying open
while you're a lock with no key
I kid myself every morning
that the ache for you is no more
Why won't I listen when I hear them saying
you're better off without a heart that's breaking
though I'm fool enough to love when you don't want me
I'm wise enough to know that you will always haunt me
- Can't Have It All - Sophie Ellis Bextor

We can wish that everything was easy, counting all the ways that life's not fair.
Or say, "I'm not going down that easy. I'm not gonna' fall cause you're not here."
Don't lose touch. You gotta' believe. You got it. You got it. You need it.
Don't forget the way it feels. You got it. You got it. Believe it.
Come on now. Don't say, "Sorry." Hold your ground. You got it. You need it.
Hold your head up for the time of your life. You gotta' believe it.
Words hurt. Truth heals. Sometimes both kill.
- We Make the Road By Walking - Juliana Theory

Patriot or Insomniac?
Saturday, 9 August 2008 @ 00:50

Happy National Day. And the start of the Beijing Olympics 2008 but that's four hours too late. [Haha, that rhymes.]

Anyway, changed seats again, this time with Audrey so that she could sit next to Andrea. I hope she's happy (: Now, I'm sitting one seat behind R. but I'm a tad more concerned about not being able to see stuff that's written towards the middle of the whiteboard clearly, rather than the conversations that I just know will come up.

Wish me luck?

Mood: Nervous
Music: Wordplay - Jason Mraz

Checklist or not.
Tuesday, 5 August 2008 @ 16:29

I just wanted to update this quickly so here goes nothing.

In 2 days, I have...

1. Found out that G. liked me at some point of time. I'm sure all the hips-ters know who he is.
2. Completely fallen in love with The Remedy [I Won't Worry] - Jason Mraz, I Want You To Want Me - Letters to Cleo & Now You Know - Hilary Duff.
3. Decided I want to go to RJC.
4. Been told that my glare is truly evil. I took it as a compliment :D
5. Not changed seats yet! As of 7 August, I now sit one seat behind from where I used to sit a long, long time ago. YAY!
6. Received the most amazing text ever from Clarine.
7. Found out that hyperness really is contagious. Yanling and Huiying know what I'm talking about ;P
8. Already planned a National Day Outing with Huiying & Yanling to J8 after visiting Huiying's ex-school carnival.
9. Been told that studying 2 weeks in advance for something makes me a nerd. And comparing topics/teachers/study methods is like, "nerd competitiveness" according to Jielin.
10. Composed 4 free-verse poems that I can be proud of.
11. Realised that people I know do actually visit my blog.
12. Constantly thought about texting a certain guy about how trapped in limbo I feel.
13. Yet to text that guy.

Mood: Adequately Happy
Music: Cruel To Be Kind - Letters To Cleo

Even Angels Fall [Not that I am one of em' Heavenly Messengers.]
Sunday, 3 August 2008 @ 18:13

Deleted the last post. It felt so - unnecessary.

Anyway, I finally got my 10 Things I Hate About You DVD, Artemis Fowl: The Time Paradox and The Kindly Ones GN. Awesome stuff.

Okay, to answer your question HuiSi, I don't know what's going on between me and him. That second-to-last text he sent me made all the awkwardness come back again and I'm not sure whether he's avoiding me or giving me time to study. I really, really want to think it's the former reason cause' asking him if it's the latter is just downright... presumptuous.

Am I too emotional now? I think so. I ought to be concentrating on the exams which are coming way too soon instead of him, but I can't.

G-d, I am so pathetic.

[As of 7 August, I now know that that guy was at an NCC camp so of course, couldn't text me. Funny thing is, his camp was at the army camp right next to my house and I never even knew it o.o]

Mood: Affected
Music: I Want You To Want Me - Letters to Cleo

Teachers' Day!
Friday, 29 August 2008 @ 21:59

ZOMG, TODAY WAS SO FUNNNNN ;D :D <3!
Best Teachers' Day ever, okay? -grins manically-
This'll be a long post so I suggest getting a bag of chips like the one I've got now first.

ACES Day was fun. I got really hyper doing it, even though I only ran once. I suppose it's because that during my first run, my shoe was like, really loose, so loose that it was pretty much off my foot by half of the lap. So, me, being the thick-skinned person that I am, actually took the shoe that was coming out in the middle of the race and ran half-bare footed and only clad in socks which were beginning to have holes. When I got back to the starting point, I was like, "LOOK, EVERYONE! NO SHOE! YAY! :D"

Quite understandably, the only response I got back was, "Eh, can I drink your water?"

=.=

[continuation of post tomorrow cause' I'm about half-asleep here. Till the morrow, ay?]

Theme Park Theology.
Wednesday, 27 August 2008 @ 22:48

Gah.

Today was a rollercoaster.
Down in Science, Up in Lit, Down in English, Steep drop in Chinese and the other 30mins CLS spent talking to me and then UP-UP-UP! for the time we spent terrorizing the teachers in the Home Econ. Lab. It was like, darn hilarious, I tell you.

Rachael was more than overzealous in decorating the brownie with icing so what should've been :
___________________________________ became
---________---------````````~~~~~~~~~~__. I kept on screaming, "No, RACHAEL! STOPPIT, STOPPIT! IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE SQUIGGLY!"

Quite a comedy.

Anyway, I'm just here to post an update since I've realised that people are coming to my blog, even though they aren't commenting. Would the anonymous people please stand up?

Mood: Something that means happy and sad at the same time.
Music: This Man - Jeremy Camp

Poetic fancy.
Saturday, 23 August 2008 @ 22:22

131st post today and it's only going to be a poem. I want comments on it, people! I'm begging you here!

[P.S: Went for dinner today and we sat at Table 13! Coincidence, no?]


Watching
You through a sheet of cellophane
hurts
more than any other Hell could.

Our
Eyes meet from across the room,
lingering.
Do you still care for me?

Backs
Pressed up hard against each other.
Fate
has a sadistic sense of humor.

(c) Kimberly Ang

All this energy has to go somewhere.
Friday, 22 August 2008 @ 18:22

Kinda hiiiiiighhhhhhhh t'day. I blame the skittles Yanling gave me. Correction, the SKITTLE Yanling gave me. It was the lime green type and made me unbelievably hyper, even sustaining me through Lit. I think it's a miracle sweet :3

Other than my crack-ish behaviour, there really is nothing much to talk about. WAIT! There is!

H: "Eh, the circuit run, you carry the 4kg bag, okay?"
K: "Yah, I carry the bag. Then you carry me."
H: "NO! I don't want to carry you. So heavy...."
K: "Okay lah, you carry the bag. Then I carry you." -pause-
"If you want, I'll tie a string around your leg and drag you along with the bag so that you won't need to run. Sound good?"

- HuiYing and me on the subject of who'll be carrying the 4kg bag on ACES Day.

Laugh, you idiots, laugh.

Anehwhay, it's been ages since I've had an icon post. Here's one now.



Mood: HIIIGGGHHHHHHHH
Music: We Live - Superchic[k]

Apologies.
Wednesday, 20 August 2008 @ 21:20

SUPER DUPER UBER BIG BLOOD-STAINED APOLOGY TO THE LOVERLY YANLING.
I DIDN'T MEAN TO MAKE YOU CRY.
FORGIVE ME?

I think tomorrow's gonna be horribly embarrassing and guilt-filled since we're finally gonna be getting our CL papers back and CLS hinted that the someone who failed was the same someone who could actually do well hasn't been doing well recently, leaving her puzzled. I've got a bad, bad feeling she's talking about me D:

Literature was chaotic as usual and it made me severely pissed off, especially when everyone went, "Oh, it's Literature, Kim. It's always this noisy. Why get so worked up about it?"

Honestly, I could have strangled them.

I mean - there's our Lit. teacher trying oh-so-hard to explain the method of analysing an unseen poem and the entire class isn't taking any notice of her. Isn't that rather screwed up? [I'll break your neck if you say no >X ]

GAWD.

Mood: Bordering on Cranky
Music: The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script

Unasked for.
Monday, 18 August 2008 @ 19:37

GET WELL SOON, HUIYING (:

Today was crappy. Again.

Headaches, unstable stomachs and boring Science lessons afflicted all of us and I swear - if I have to sit through another powerpoint presentation about experiments on photosynthesis, I'm gonna either fall asleep or tell the teacher, "Sir, I think it's quite apparent that you're boring us to death. Could you get to the point, please?"

I'm serious here.

Anyway, I saw Anthia at church yesterday. She was wearing a purple v-neck shirt that looked suspiciously like something I had in my closet. It was kinda funny and embarrassing even though she [probably!] couldn't see me. If you can see the joke in it, I think we should be soulmates. If you can't, whatever XP.

Oh g-d, why am I blogging when I've got a Literature test to study for? -scrambles off computer-

Tahs, darling C;

Mood: Confiding
Music: Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends - FOB

Insomnia
Saturday, 16 August 2008 @ 00:48

It's 12.49am and I'm still awake. Even though I've got an early morning tomorrow. Can you say 'insomnia'?

Went for Assumption mass today and felt exceptionally good about my religion, even though the priest's homily was about as interesting as boiled cabbage. Nevertheless, it made me feel more secure, like there was something or someone up there who actually gave a damn about me and what I was going through right now.

Knowing that someone cares about me makes me feel all warm and snuggly inside (:

P.S To R: Sorry if I came across as unthoughtful today when you lost your pencil case and HS notes. It's just that it was a test, y'know? Tests come first. No hard feelings, okay?

To G: Thanks for listening while I rambled on and on and on about the pointlessness of Life [FYI: I am NOT suicidal x.x]. I'm sure you had better things to do.

Mood: Insomniatic
Music: Little Superhero - Corrine May

Exam Depression.
Wednesday, 13 August 2008 @ 20:38

I WANT YOU
I NEED YOU
OH BABY
OH BABY.

-stares miserably at a rainbow sprinkle-covered chocolate tart-

D:

Mood:
Music: Your Winter - Sister Hazel

Soliloquy
Monday, 11 August 2008 @ 10:23

Looking back on my recent posts, I think I must've been drunk whenever I talked about my current NON! relationship with that guy. Really, that must be the only explanation since I'm pretty sure I wasn't sober. Then again, I shouldn't be so quick to say so since:

"It is the habit of children and drunkards to point out that the emperor is naked." - The Sandman
&
“A drunk man's tongue is a sober man's mind.”
So are they my thoughts? Very much. The question is, however, was I thinking when I said them or were they just little things that popped out of nowhere because I didn't feel like sharing all the cool stuff in my life with the world?

Heh. You decide.

Mood: OverANALytical
Music: Breathe - Michelle Branch

Sunday, 10 August 2008 @ 22:57

And now I'm learning to live, learning to live
I'm learning to live on without
having your love returning
I can't have it all
but all that I want is you
You remain in the twilight
with eyes that look but don't see
and I'm a book lying open
while you're a lock with no key
I kid myself every morning
that the ache for you is no more
Why won't I listen when I hear them saying
you're better off without a heart that's breaking
though I'm fool enough to love when you don't want me
I'm wise enough to know that you will always haunt me
- Can't Have It All - Sophie Ellis Bextor

We can wish that everything was easy, counting all the ways that life's not fair.
Or say, "I'm not going down that easy. I'm not gonna' fall cause you're not here."
Don't lose touch. You gotta' believe. You got it. You got it. You need it.
Don't forget the way it feels. You got it. You got it. Believe it.
Come on now. Don't say, "Sorry." Hold your ground. You got it. You need it.
Hold your head up for the time of your life. You gotta' believe it.
Words hurt. Truth heals. Sometimes both kill.
- We Make the Road By Walking - Juliana Theory

Patriot or Insomniac?
Saturday, 9 August 2008 @ 00:50

Happy National Day. And the start of the Beijing Olympics 2008 but that's four hours too late. [Haha, that rhymes.]

Anyway, changed seats again, this time with Audrey so that she could sit next to Andrea. I hope she's happy (: Now, I'm sitting one seat behind R. but I'm a tad more concerned about not being able to see stuff that's written towards the middle of the whiteboard clearly, rather than the conversations that I just know will come up.

Wish me luck?

Mood: Nervous
Music: Wordplay - Jason Mraz

Checklist or not.
Tuesday, 5 August 2008 @ 16:29

I just wanted to update this quickly so here goes nothing.

In 2 days, I have...

1. Found out that G. liked me at some point of time. I'm sure all the hips-ters know who he is.
2. Completely fallen in love with The Remedy [I Won't Worry] - Jason Mraz, I Want You To Want Me - Letters to Cleo & Now You Know - Hilary Duff.
3. Decided I want to go to RJC.
4. Been told that my glare is truly evil. I took it as a compliment :D
5. Not changed seats yet! As of 7 August, I now sit one seat behind from where I used to sit a long, long time ago. YAY!
6. Received the most amazing text ever from Clarine.
7. Found out that hyperness really is contagious. Yanling and Huiying know what I'm talking about ;P
8. Already planned a National Day Outing with Huiying & Yanling to J8 after visiting Huiying's ex-school carnival.
9. Been told that studying 2 weeks in advance for something makes me a nerd. And comparing topics/teachers/study methods is like, "nerd competitiveness" according to Jielin.
10. Composed 4 free-verse poems that I can be proud of.
11. Realised that people I know do actually visit my blog.
12. Constantly thought about texting a certain guy about how trapped in limbo I feel.
13. Yet to text that guy.

Mood: Adequately Happy
Music: Cruel To Be Kind - Letters To Cleo

Even Angels Fall [Not that I am one of em' Heavenly Messengers.]
Sunday, 3 August 2008 @ 18:13

Deleted the last post. It felt so - unnecessary.

Anyway, I finally got my 10 Things I Hate About You DVD, Artemis Fowl: The Time Paradox and The Kindly Ones GN. Awesome stuff.

Okay, to answer your question HuiSi, I don't know what's going on between me and him. That second-to-last text he sent me made all the awkwardness come back again and I'm not sure whether he's avoiding me or giving me time to study. I really, really want to think it's the former reason cause' asking him if it's the latter is just downright... presumptuous.

Am I too emotional now? I think so. I ought to be concentrating on the exams which are coming way too soon instead of him, but I can't.

G-d, I am so pathetic.

[As of 7 August, I now know that that guy was at an NCC camp so of course, couldn't text me. Funny thing is, his camp was at the army camp right next to my house and I never even knew it o.o]

Mood: Affected
Music: I Want You To Want Me - Letters to Cleo