paper thoughts

I WANT MY LITERARY FIX!
Saturday, 28 June 2008 @ 23:22

Bah.

I saw the sequel to the first Skulduggery Pleasant book at Page One. Along with the entire Sandman Collection. I was like, "O,O!" and grinning like mad but then when I saw the price, the expression on my face was "Z;" , get what I mean?

It's okay - you probably don't. But anyway, at least my dad was nice enough to say that the next time we went to Times, he'd give me his Times 20% off birthday voucher so I'd be able to get it. Now isn't that nice of him?

Art was really fun today ; none of us were rushing since the charcoal thing'd be due next week so everyone was laidback, chatting to their friends and generally having a good time. My sunflowers turned out a tad too dark but hopefully, with the help of a kneadable eraser, it'll turn out lighter and more life-like.

Hopefully.

Mood: Bookish
Music: 4 Minutes - Madonna feat. Justin Timberlake & Timbaland

Heartbreak? How can you break it if it's already screwed beyond belief?
Friday, 27 June 2008 @ 18:10

Friday the 13th all over again.
@ 16:41

I so don't think today was my day D:

Morning started out just fine but by mid-morning, it was all awfullllll.

Science was a bore and no one was in the mood for studying since all of us were so used to the former timetable's [it changed yet again =.=] crapping around in the iMac lab for bout' an hour or so before heaving ourselves to P.E.
After Science, we had Chinese and I totally thought that I forgot to bring my chinese compo book so I had to borrow like, four sheets of gao zi from Chloe. And then, I suddenly realized that the History project'd be due right after the weekend so I hurried to give XinYu my email addie. Unfortunately for me, CLS caught me and confiscated my entire History notebook.

Andddd, she pushed up the deadline for the CL essay so that the whole class would have to rush like mad to complete it by that day. The worst part is knowing that IT'S ALL MY FAULT D":

I was damn angry/mortified with myself and walking down towards the canteen, I felt like a marked man. Seriously.

Anyway, D&T was right after that and I gotta admit, as much as I like being all positive and stuff, it was a downright bore. Especially the group work part - none of us were enthu at all and got all the WANTS and WOWS mixed up ):

Hn. English wasn't so bad and CLS, pitying us, rushed up to tell us that if we couldn't finish the essay, she'd give us till' Monday to do it. I was like, THANK GOD :D Of course, my happiness was short-lived since she wanted to talk to me. When she started asking me what I was doing, I was so bloody flustered and totally embarrassed that she was so disappointed with me. But she forgave me and told me I could have my History notebook back on Monday. I still felt like crying though.

HY asked if I was 'sensitive' to criticism and I said yeah, but only towards people I respect. That's why I kept tearing myself up about what CLS said to me. But thanks to HY for cheering me up anyway (:

Mood: Disgraced
Music: Burn The Rememberance - Katatonia

Nanobites
Thursday, 26 June 2008 @ 18:02

I swear, that certain guy is the sweetest thing alive.
Like, absolutely THE sweetest. Even sweeter than chocolate ice-cream, drizzled with chocolate sauce and whipped cream, sprinkled generously with chocolate rice, sprinkles and maltese balls.
I mean - can you believe that he sent me an SMS asking whether I was mad at him for something I wasn't even thinking about anymore? And he said he was sorry too! Haha XD

But seriously, I've never seen a guy do that before. EVER.

Moving on to a much more trivial subject, I have [finally!] succumbed to the idea that is a new computer since my old one's been with me for years. Mind you, this new PC cost me this year and next year's christmas presents so I'mma wondering whether it was worth it.

Oh gawd, what have I gotten myself into?

Anyway, I really do apologize for my lack of updates. It's been like, a week sincer I last posted? Yeah, sorry about that but y'know, with all the schoolwork and stuff, life's hectic again.

Bah =.=

Mood: Undecided & Oddly Happy
Music: I Am Not My Hair - India Arie feat. P!nk

Passionate, not obsessed.
Thursday, 19 June 2008 @ 23:48

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA & NIGEL!

Haha, look out for your prezzies soon ;D

Anyway, here's a list of things I'm just about obsessed with right now:

  1. Atlantis: The Lost Empire ; Kida and Milo are adorable separately but even more so together XD Don't you just love nerds?
  2. Sandman ; Borrowed bout' four volumes [Brief Lives, Worlds' End, The Wake & The Doll House] and I'm completely in love with Dream a.k.a Lord Morpheus. Ooh, Delirium and Death are awesome too. I just love their style (:
  3. Lifehouse's Better Luck Next Time & Days Go By; The tunes are totally hum-worthy. Even though my parents think Lifehouse has g*d-awful singers.
  4. Mal Peet's Tamar; I love the storytelling. Check it out :D
  5. Erin Hunter's Firestar's Quest; HA! It's going for $13 at Kinokuniya! Mwahaha.
  6. SLD Scrapbook; Sihui, if you're reading this, CALL ME! I DESPERATELY need your reflection D:
Yeah, that's about all (:

Mood: Obsessed
Music: Days Go By - Lifehouse

Random Music Quiz
Wednesday, 18 June 2008 @ 19:14

So, here’s how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question type the song that’s playing.
5. When you go to a new question press the next button.

Ready? GO!

Opening Credits:
Ordinary - Train

Waking Up:
Leave Me Alone (I'm Lonely) - P!nk [More like, leave me alone. Five more minutes, mum... -snicker-]

Falling In Love:
Hum Hallelujah - FOB [Haha, am I really that despo? It was a rhetorical question, idiot -_-]

Fight Song:
Somewhere Only We Know - Keane [Yeah, when I say I'm 'fighting', I'm really hiding.]

Breaking Up:
Be Still - Kelly Clarkson [nice melody, perfect for this actually.]

Make-up:
Everybody Knows - Dixie Chicks [HAHAHA XD Everybody knows what?]

Life’s Okay:
Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park [I think the title's a bit misleading.]

Mental Breakdown:
Gifts and Curses - Yellowcard [Huh?]

Driving:
Sugar, We're Going Down - FOB [I think this says everything bout' my driving skills.]

Flashback:
Make a Move - Incubus [yeah, I should have made a move with that guy so that I wouldn't end up thinking about him everyday.]

Happy Dance:
I'm Not Dead - P!nk [Gd, I love this song. Perfect motivator.]

Regretting:
Clocks - Coldplay

Final Battle:
The Dark of the Matinee - Franz Ferdinand [Yeah, my last battle will be in an opera house XD "Halt, Soprano!"]

Death Scene:
I Slept With Someone in Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me - FOB [ROFL: this really needs no explanation.]

Make-Out Scene:
Time Is Running Out - Muse [So it just means, "Hurry and kiss me, you fool!"?]

Ending Credits:
Favourite Year - Dixie Chicks [Heh (:]

Anyone's welcome to do this quiz ;D

Wake Me Up - Addison Road
@ 19:04

Wake Me Up - Addison Road


My need is greater than it’s ever been.
I can’t stop this longing inside
for something bigger than I already am.
I need some kind of spark,
some kind of light.
Woah [x2]
If you could open up my head and
look in like a surgeon holding a knife.
Then you could tell me what piece is missing
and prescribe some direction to my life.
Woah [x2]

How did I ever get to be this far away?

I remember when it used to be you and me, you and me.
But now it’s just a memory,
of you and me,
you and me.
And wake me up.

I’ve heard it said that our minds are only playing games.
Faith is weakness, crazy, insane.
But when I think back I know you were there.
I felt your touch.
I could see your stare.
Woah [x2]

I remember when it used to be you and me,
you and me.
But now it’s just a memory, of you and me,
you and me.
Wake me up [x2]

I never wanted you so bad.
I never wanted all, I didn’t have.
I never needed you, this way I do.
This way I do [x2]
Yeah
Whoa (4X)

-Chorus-

I love this song so much. It reminds me of him and my where I am with him and, oh gosh - everything.
Hah. I sound exactly like a love-struck school girl.

Suicide only hurries death.
Tuesday, 17 June 2008 @ 23:43

So, it's been 4 days since I've updated. Why the lack of updates, you ask. Well, it's a combination of general lethargy, rushing to complete holiday homework and absolutely nothing to post about. Or more accurately - nothing important/special/funny/sad/great enough to compel me to post about.

So, since I'm posting now, doesn't that mean I've got something to talk about? Yes. Yes, I do. And it's not exactly a light-hearted subject. This is not for people who are going to tease me/laugh about it after they read this post.

You have been warned X/


I think I've got cancer. Or something that looks awfully like one of the first symptoms of breast cancer. It's a lump near my armpit and it's scaring me.
Oh god, it's scaring me so much.
Staring back at me in the mirror, looking like hospitals and chemotherapy and death.
Please God, let it just be a cyst. Please.

Tiger looks like he's got a bullet-wound to the chest. It's slight reddish-pink and it's basically a HOLE in his chest. I think if he'd let me, I'd be able to sort of see his insides and that scares me.
More than you can imagine.
His fur around the wound is gone and Tiger sleeps non-stop now, lying on the floor. I think he's too tired/sore to do anything. I sort of dread the day that he falls asleep and never wakes up again.

I watched a documentary once about cats and injuries. It said that cats are less likely to show their pain but if they do, you can guess that whatever's wrong with your cat, it probably hurts more like HELL.
Lord, please don't let him die. He's a nice cat :>

Mood: Crappy
Music: I Won't Be Afraid - Addison Road

Goodluck on Bad Luck Day (:
Friday, 13 June 2008 @ 21:12

Alrighty, I couldn't bear not posting today.
HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13TH Y'ALL ;D

Not much to post about other than my cats being 'evicted' by my condominium's management after one of them went into my neighbour's house to play. But that's a story for another time.

Mood: Kinda confused, sorta indignant
Music: Sticking With You - Addison Road

Rage had nothing to do with it. [sarcasm alert!]
Thursday, 12 June 2008 @ 21:14

I REALLY ought to be posting bout' my trip to Bangkok but I'm too angry to. Maybe later.

I should have gone for the class outing.
I should have gone no matter who was going to be there.
If I had gone, I could have made the turnout a /little/ better.
And hung out with the guys or gone with the girls or something. -sigh-

GAH.

Capital letters /do not/ express how angry I am with myself, my mum and - everyone X:

-proceeds to smash head into the keyboard-

Mood: Frustrated
Music: Heaven Forbid - The Fray

Art is fun.
Friday, 6 June 2008 @ 12:08

I really ought to be getting ready for my Bangkok trip but I'm sure I'll be able to do it later (:

Went out with Andrea, HuiYing and SiHui yesterday to SAM, a.k.a Singapore Arts Museum.
It started off with me rushing on to the train at Ang Mo Kio and then suddenly realizing that I was on the wrong one after the train went past Yio Chu Kang. I was like, "Eh, how come Bishan got water one? And how come got so many trees?!"

Yes, that was a direct quotation of what I was thinking.

And yes, I was thinking in Singlish.

Anyway, I got out at Khatib and made my way back to Bishan with the other train. Haha, it felt like it was such a Kimberly-thing to do, getting on to the wrong train and not realizing it till 15 minutes afterwards XD

Fast-forward till one-ish and we were walking around the Raffles' City-CHIJMES area looking for the museum but thank G-d for Andrea's map and SiHui's good sense of direction. Me and HuiYing would have been goners without them.

At round' 3pm, we said goodbye to SAM and headed to get drinks at the near-by food court. As always, I made my customary purchase of Bandung -gigglesnortwink-. I think Andrea ordered a Teh Susu [!], HuiYing a Ice Teh-C and SiHui a Zero Coke or something. After that, walked over to the National Library and borrowed a couple of books. I was so happy when I saw their comic book collection.

They had HUSH: VOLUME TWO! DARK VICTORY! NIGHTWING! DEATH: THE HIGH COST OF LIVING!

Too bad they didn't have any Sandman stuff other than the High Cost of Living book D:

Here are some pictures I took, all in order of time taken, the earliest being the first.
















Haha, we were jumping but the camera was [unfortunately!] zoomed in, therefore the spastic poses of mid-jump.


This was the only good picture that we managed to get of someone jumping since the other pictures were either too zoomed-in or just looked like we were levitating [ha! andrea XD].











Mood: Busy
Music: Street Fighting Man - The Ramones

Rhetorically Wondering
Thursday, 5 June 2008 @ 01:58

Rhetorically Wondering

Not a pretty thought--
But then, it never is.
Not even when I've said I could have brought it about
Given a gun, and a ticket to the mansion of
The dictator of the moment.
And not when I think of anyone alive
In any other state, though it comes up
Often enough in my thoughts.
I am wrestling with jigsaws I don't understand.
And whatever may come afterward,
Rewards and rainbows or chaos and inferno--
Or nothing at all--how boring--
Nothing eases the idea lodged, of what I might do,
How I might react given a seat up close on
A black-creped pew, or sneaking in at the back
To search for a bare chair.
To be there is to be too close; to be away, too far.
And I will wonder, until I finally see
A meaningful lily, or an urn and a daffodil bouquet,
And I know I will wish then that I never wished to know.


-Katherine Foreman

P.S: I know the time doesn't show but it really /was/ 2 am in the morning when I posted this. Yeah, insomniac - I know.

XP

Tragedy is my forte.
Monday, 2 June 2008 @ 22:37

A look into the mind of Medusa. An entry in her diary, perhaps. After all, staying by yourself without the company of any others would drive anyone mad.

They call me a monster, coming at me with their swords and knives and fancy armor, glinting so in the sunlight.
I stand at the furtherest corner of my cave - a home of sorts -, shrieking,"Be gone with you! I do not wish to hurt you! I do not wish to take your life! Please!".
It happens anyway and I feel ashamed for it.
So, so, ashamed.
But I tell myself, it is not my fault. It will never be my fault, so long as I warn them, so long as I do not fight back. Fighting back means that I can help myself and I cannot.

I will not.

I am better off dead, anyway.

ROFL?
@ 14:08

Just read Vanessa's latest blog entry and started laughing my head off when she said
The battle scenes were nice ,and there were some funny parts :) and Susan reminded me of Kimberly from H.I.P.S.! I don't know why, everytime I see her I'll think of Kimberly from H.I.P.S.
I'm not sure whether it's an insult or a compliment yet.

Speaking of Narnia, I caught it on Saturday at Lido with my -insert number- of cousins. My parents and I got to the cinema round' 12.50pm, bought popcorn and ended up waiting till 1.15pm for them which was LATE since the show was supposed to start at 1.10pm.

Thank G-d for 10 minute advertisements.

Personally, I thought the movie was awesome. There were some parts you wouldn't manage to understand if you hadn't [recently] read the book and for that, I know some hardcore fans of the first movie - like my cousin :O - didn't like it but honestly, the cinematography was great.

I just hope The Dark Knight is as good.



BTW, I think I'm going to murder someone if the Film Censors Board puts that movie as NC16 or anything more than PG13.

Really.

Mood: Frustrated
Music: Sober - Kelly Clarkson

Originality is a pain in the arse.
Sunday, 1 June 2008 @ 18:09

Sho.

Gosh, the UOB Art piece is pissing me off severely.

I know that I won't win.
It goes without saying so much that I wouldn't be at all surprised if I found it in the Terms & Conditions, "All entries will be subject to painful and torturous critique. The Judging Panel would like you to know that the winners ought to be considered lucky, lucky bastards."

Well, that's what I think anyway.

Moving on, a big thank you to my parents for supporting me whole-heartedly [i.e buying me the damn expensive materials that I needed] even though your suggestions of "Something scenic... like the Grand Canyon, maybe?" went unheard of by me.

Seriously though, thank you.

Mood: Artists' Block
Music: XO - FOB

Friday the 13th all over again.
@ 16:41

I so don't think today was my day D:

Morning started out just fine but by mid-morning, it was all awfullllll.

Science was a bore and no one was in the mood for studying since all of us were so used to the former timetable's [it changed yet again =.=] crapping around in the iMac lab for bout' an hour or so before heaving ourselves to P.E.
After Science, we had Chinese and I totally thought that I forgot to bring my chinese compo book so I had to borrow like, four sheets of gao zi from Chloe. And then, I suddenly realized that the History project'd be due right after the weekend so I hurried to give XinYu my email addie. Unfortunately for me, CLS caught me and confiscated my entire History notebook.

Andddd, she pushed up the deadline for the CL essay so that the whole class would have to rush like mad to complete it by that day. The worst part is knowing that IT'S ALL MY FAULT D":

I was damn angry/mortified with myself and walking down towards the canteen, I felt like a marked man. Seriously.

Anyway, D&T was right after that and I gotta admit, as much as I like being all positive and stuff, it was a downright bore. Especially the group work part - none of us were enthu at all and got all the WANTS and WOWS mixed up ):

Hn. English wasn't so bad and CLS, pitying us, rushed up to tell us that if we couldn't finish the essay, she'd give us till' Monday to do it. I was like, THANK GOD :D Of course, my happiness was short-lived since she wanted to talk to me. When she started asking me what I was doing, I was so bloody flustered and totally embarrassed that she was so disappointed with me. But she forgave me and told me I could have my History notebook back on Monday. I still felt like crying though.

HY asked if I was 'sensitive' to criticism and I said yeah, but only towards people I respect. That's why I kept tearing myself up about what CLS said to me. But thanks to HY for cheering me up anyway (:

Mood: Disgraced
Music: Burn The Rememberance - Katatonia

Nanobites
Thursday, 26 June 2008 @ 18:02

I swear, that certain guy is the sweetest thing alive.
Like, absolutely THE sweetest. Even sweeter than chocolate ice-cream, drizzled with chocolate sauce and whipped cream, sprinkled generously with chocolate rice, sprinkles and maltese balls.
I mean - can you believe that he sent me an SMS asking whether I was mad at him for something I wasn't even thinking about anymore? And he said he was sorry too! Haha XD

But seriously, I've never seen a guy do that before. EVER.

Moving on to a much more trivial subject, I have [finally!] succumbed to the idea that is a new computer since my old one's been with me for years. Mind you, this new PC cost me this year and next year's christmas presents so I'mma wondering whether it was worth it.

Oh gawd, what have I gotten myself into?

Anyway, I really do apologize for my lack of updates. It's been like, a week sincer I last posted? Yeah, sorry about that but y'know, with all the schoolwork and stuff, life's hectic again.

Bah =.=

Mood: Undecided & Oddly Happy
Music: I Am Not My Hair - India Arie feat. P!nk

Passionate, not obsessed.
Thursday, 19 June 2008 @ 23:48

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA & NIGEL!

Haha, look out for your prezzies soon ;D

Anyway, here's a list of things I'm just about obsessed with right now:

  1. Atlantis: The Lost Empire ; Kida and Milo are adorable separately but even more so together XD Don't you just love nerds?
  2. Sandman ; Borrowed bout' four volumes [Brief Lives, Worlds' End, The Wake & The Doll House] and I'm completely in love with Dream a.k.a Lord Morpheus. Ooh, Delirium and Death are awesome too. I just love their style (:
  3. Lifehouse's Better Luck Next Time & Days Go By; The tunes are totally hum-worthy. Even though my parents think Lifehouse has g*d-awful singers.
  4. Mal Peet's Tamar; I love the storytelling. Check it out :D
  5. Erin Hunter's Firestar's Quest; HA! It's going for $13 at Kinokuniya! Mwahaha.
  6. SLD Scrapbook; Sihui, if you're reading this, CALL ME! I DESPERATELY need your reflection D:
Yeah, that's about all (:

Mood: Obsessed
Music: Days Go By - Lifehouse

Random Music Quiz
Wednesday, 18 June 2008 @ 19:14

So, here’s how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question type the song that’s playing.
5. When you go to a new question press the next button.

Ready? GO!

Opening Credits:
Ordinary - Train

Waking Up:
Leave Me Alone (I'm Lonely) - P!nk [More like, leave me alone. Five more minutes, mum... -snicker-]

Falling In Love:
Hum Hallelujah - FOB [Haha, am I really that despo? It was a rhetorical question, idiot -_-]

Fight Song:
Somewhere Only We Know - Keane [Yeah, when I say I'm 'fighting', I'm really hiding.]

Breaking Up:
Be Still - Kelly Clarkson [nice melody, perfect for this actually.]

Make-up:
Everybody Knows - Dixie Chicks [HAHAHA XD Everybody knows what?]

Life’s Okay:
Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park [I think the title's a bit misleading.]

Mental Breakdown:
Gifts and Curses - Yellowcard [Huh?]

Driving:
Sugar, We're Going Down - FOB [I think this says everything bout' my driving skills.]

Flashback:
Make a Move - Incubus [yeah, I should have made a move with that guy so that I wouldn't end up thinking about him everyday.]

Happy Dance:
I'm Not Dead - P!nk [Gd, I love this song. Perfect motivator.]

Regretting:
Clocks - Coldplay

Final Battle:
The Dark of the Matinee - Franz Ferdinand [Yeah, my last battle will be in an opera house XD "Halt, Soprano!"]

Death Scene:
I Slept With Someone in Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me - FOB [ROFL: this really needs no explanation.]

Make-Out Scene:
Time Is Running Out - Muse [So it just means, "Hurry and kiss me, you fool!"?]

Ending Credits:
Favourite Year - Dixie Chicks [Heh (:]

Anyone's welcome to do this quiz ;D

Wake Me Up - Addison Road
@ 19:04

Wake Me Up - Addison Road


My need is greater than it’s ever been.
I can’t stop this longing inside
for something bigger than I already am.
I need some kind of spark,
some kind of light.
Woah [x2]
If you could open up my head and
look in like a surgeon holding a knife.
Then you could tell me what piece is missing
and prescribe some direction to my life.
Woah [x2]

How did I ever get to be this far away?

I remember when it used to be you and me, you and me.
But now it’s just a memory,
of you and me,
you and me.
And wake me up.

I’ve heard it said that our minds are only playing games.
Faith is weakness, crazy, insane.
But when I think back I know you were there.
I felt your touch.
I could see your stare.
Woah [x2]

I remember when it used to be you and me,
you and me.
But now it’s just a memory, of you and me,
you and me.
Wake me up [x2]

I never wanted you so bad.
I never wanted all, I didn’t have.
I never needed you, this way I do.
This way I do [x2]
Yeah
Whoa (4X)

-Chorus-

I love this song so much. It reminds me of him and my where I am with him and, oh gosh - everything.
Hah. I sound exactly like a love-struck school girl.

Suicide only hurries death.
Tuesday, 17 June 2008 @ 23:43

So, it's been 4 days since I've updated. Why the lack of updates, you ask. Well, it's a combination of general lethargy, rushing to complete holiday homework and absolutely nothing to post about. Or more accurately - nothing important/special/funny/sad/great enough to compel me to post about.

So, since I'm posting now, doesn't that mean I've got something to talk about? Yes. Yes, I do. And it's not exactly a light-hearted subject. This is not for people who are going to tease me/laugh about it after they read this post.

You have been warned X/


I think I've got cancer. Or something that looks awfully like one of the first symptoms of breast cancer. It's a lump near my armpit and it's scaring me.
Oh god, it's scaring me so much.
Staring back at me in the mirror, looking like hospitals and chemotherapy and death.
Please God, let it just be a cyst. Please.

Tiger looks like he's got a bullet-wound to the chest. It's slight reddish-pink and it's basically a HOLE in his chest. I think if he'd let me, I'd be able to sort of see his insides and that scares me.
More than you can imagine.
His fur around the wound is gone and Tiger sleeps non-stop now, lying on the floor. I think he's too tired/sore to do anything. I sort of dread the day that he falls asleep and never wakes up again.

I watched a documentary once about cats and injuries. It said that cats are less likely to show their pain but if they do, you can guess that whatever's wrong with your cat, it probably hurts more like HELL.
Lord, please don't let him die. He's a nice cat :>

Mood: Crappy
Music: I Won't Be Afraid - Addison Road

Goodluck on Bad Luck Day (:
Friday, 13 June 2008 @ 21:12

Alrighty, I couldn't bear not posting today.
HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13TH Y'ALL ;D

Not much to post about other than my cats being 'evicted' by my condominium's management after one of them went into my neighbour's house to play. But that's a story for another time.

Mood: Kinda confused, sorta indignant
Music: Sticking With You - Addison Road

Rage had nothing to do with it. [sarcasm alert!]
Thursday, 12 June 2008 @ 21:14

I REALLY ought to be posting bout' my trip to Bangkok but I'm too angry to. Maybe later.

I should have gone for the class outing.
I should have gone no matter who was going to be there.
If I had gone, I could have made the turnout a /little/ better.
And hung out with the guys or gone with the girls or something. -sigh-

GAH.

Capital letters /do not/ express how angry I am with myself, my mum and - everyone X:

-proceeds to smash head into the keyboard-

Mood: Frustrated
Music: Heaven Forbid - The Fray

Art is fun.
Friday, 6 June 2008 @ 12:08

I really ought to be getting ready for my Bangkok trip but I'm sure I'll be able to do it later (:

Went out with Andrea, HuiYing and SiHui yesterday to SAM, a.k.a Singapore Arts Museum.
It started off with me rushing on to the train at Ang Mo Kio and then suddenly realizing that I was on the wrong one after the train went past Yio Chu Kang. I was like, "Eh, how come Bishan got water one? And how come got so many trees?!"

Yes, that was a direct quotation of what I was thinking.

And yes, I was thinking in Singlish.

Anyway, I got out at Khatib and made my way back to Bishan with the other train. Haha, it felt like it was such a Kimberly-thing to do, getting on to the wrong train and not realizing it till 15 minutes afterwards XD

Fast-forward till one-ish and we were walking around the Raffles' City-CHIJMES area looking for the museum but thank G-d for Andrea's map and SiHui's good sense of direction. Me and HuiYing would have been goners without them.

At round' 3pm, we said goodbye to SAM and headed to get drinks at the near-by food court. As always, I made my customary purchase of Bandung -gigglesnortwink-. I think Andrea ordered a Teh Susu [!], HuiYing a Ice Teh-C and SiHui a Zero Coke or something. After that, walked over to the National Library and borrowed a couple of books. I was so happy when I saw their comic book collection.

They had HUSH: VOLUME TWO! DARK VICTORY! NIGHTWING! DEATH: THE HIGH COST OF LIVING!

Too bad they didn't have any Sandman stuff other than the High Cost of Living book D:

Here are some pictures I took, all in order of time taken, the earliest being the first.
















Haha, we were jumping but the camera was [unfortunately!] zoomed in, therefore the spastic poses of mid-jump.


This was the only good picture that we managed to get of someone jumping since the other pictures were either too zoomed-in or just looked like we were levitating [ha! andrea XD].











Mood: Busy
Music: Street Fighting Man - The Ramones

Rhetorically Wondering
Thursday, 5 June 2008 @ 01:58

Rhetorically Wondering

Not a pretty thought--
But then, it never is.
Not even when I've said I could have brought it about
Given a gun, and a ticket to the mansion of
The dictator of the moment.
And not when I think of anyone alive
In any other state, though it comes up
Often enough in my thoughts.
I am wrestling with jigsaws I don't understand.
And whatever may come afterward,
Rewards and rainbows or chaos and inferno--
Or nothing at all--how boring--
Nothing eases the idea lodged, of what I might do,
How I might react given a seat up close on
A black-creped pew, or sneaking in at the back
To search for a bare chair.
To be there is to be too close; to be away, too far.
And I will wonder, until I finally see
A meaningful lily, or an urn and a daffodil bouquet,
And I know I will wish then that I never wished to know.


-Katherine Foreman

P.S: I know the time doesn't show but it really /was/ 2 am in the morning when I posted this. Yeah, insomniac - I know.

XP

Tragedy is my forte.
Monday, 2 June 2008 @ 22:37

A look into the mind of Medusa. An entry in her diary, perhaps. After all, staying by yourself without the company of any others would drive anyone mad.

They call me a monster, coming at me with their swords and knives and fancy armor, glinting so in the sunlight.
I stand at the furtherest corner of my cave - a home of sorts -, shrieking,"Be gone with you! I do not wish to hurt you! I do not wish to take your life! Please!".
It happens anyway and I feel ashamed for it.
So, so, ashamed.
But I tell myself, it is not my fault. It will never be my fault, so long as I warn them, so long as I do not fight back. Fighting back means that I can help myself and I cannot.

I will not.

I am better off dead, anyway.

ROFL?
@ 14:08

Just read Vanessa's latest blog entry and started laughing my head off when she said
The battle scenes were nice ,and there were some funny parts :) and Susan reminded me of Kimberly from H.I.P.S.! I don't know why, everytime I see her I'll think of Kimberly from H.I.P.S.
I'm not sure whether it's an insult or a compliment yet.

Speaking of Narnia, I caught it on Saturday at Lido with my -insert number- of cousins. My parents and I got to the cinema round' 12.50pm, bought popcorn and ended up waiting till 1.15pm for them which was LATE since the show was supposed to start at 1.10pm.

Thank G-d for 10 minute advertisements.

Personally, I thought the movie was awesome. There were some parts you wouldn't manage to understand if you hadn't [recently] read the book and for that, I know some hardcore fans of the first movie - like my cousin :O - didn't like it but honestly, the cinematography was great.

I just hope The Dark Knight is as good.



BTW, I think I'm going to murder someone if the Film Censors Board puts that movie as NC16 or anything more than PG13.

Really.

Mood: Frustrated
Music: Sober - Kelly Clarkson

Originality is a pain in the arse.
Sunday, 1 June 2008 @ 18:09

Sho.

Gosh, the UOB Art piece is pissing me off severely.

I know that I won't win.
It goes without saying so much that I wouldn't be at all surprised if I found it in the Terms & Conditions, "All entries will be subject to painful and torturous critique. The Judging Panel would like you to know that the winners ought to be considered lucky, lucky bastards."

Well, that's what I think anyway.

Moving on, a big thank you to my parents for supporting me whole-heartedly [i.e buying me the damn expensive materials that I needed] even though your suggestions of "Something scenic... like the Grand Canyon, maybe?" went unheard of by me.

Seriously though, thank you.

Mood: Artists' Block
Music: XO - FOB