paper thoughts

Peer Pressure
Wednesday, 30 April 2008 @ 14:15

Bunch of stuff I'd like to say but -
"Nowhere in the world is safe."
-Olaf, The End.
I don't know why you guys all hate ___ so much.
I mean, ___'s honestly a nice person.
Maybe I'm just biased or I like to think the best of people.
Whatever.
Take away all the trivialness ___'s got underneath and have a heart-to-heart talk with ___ and you just KNOW everyone's got it wrong.
And I'm not just saying so because ___ is nice to me.
It's just that I find it frickin' unfair how you guys treat ___.
WTH did ___ do?

Mood: Pissed
Music: Enter Sandman - Metallica

Peace, Love and Informal Letters
Tuesday, 29 April 2008 @ 17:51

Alright, I know I ought to be studying for my geography test but I wanted to post about m EL & CL Paper 1!
So don't flame me for being a good lil' blogger XP

I usually absolutely hate it when the CL Paper is in the afternoon.
USUALLY.
Cause' I get really lethargic and sleepy round' that time.
However, the good thing about having it in the afternoon is that I HAD TIME TO REVISE!
Haha, was memorizing chengyu like mad but it didn't matter anyway since I didn't even get to use it. But thanks for lending me your study material, Audrey (:

I think my EL Compo was seriously awful. I actually wrote two compos. on the same topic, each about 1 page+ [without lines].
How kiasu can I get?
For the last few minutes, I was rushing and my handwriting got uber ugly, courtesy of the gel pen I was using. Sorry, whoever's marking m' paper.

Like I said, I wrote two compos. and was totally indecisive about the one I should hand up. It was like - I like this one's plot better! Oh, but this sounds so much more poetic cause of the paragraphing and short sentences! Eh, how to chooooooseeee?!

Talked to KaiSeng for a bit with HuiYing after the exam during the break and we were shooting questions and answers back and forth like a pinball game. HuiYing commented about it and although I found it really funny at the time, I can't seem to remember what phrase she used o.o

We were discussing about peace and was it merely a word in the Human vocabulary, not something out there, just waiting for us to discover it? I was arguing that the lack of peace in the world was because most humans aren't naturally pacifists and their minds have more of an Alpha-Male/Female Complex, leading to the opposite of peace, WAR. After all, haven't you seen the resistance movements? Or even the governments themselves?

Yeah, I was in one of my more philosophical-contemplative-cynical moods that day.

Mood: Thirsty
Music: The Take Over, The Break's Over - FOB

Him.
Sunday, 27 April 2008 @ 11:34

Yes, I was absolutely correct.
He didn't say a thing to me save for the whole "Why is your cousin doing homework during catechism" blah which even then, was said indirectly.
Was it too much of me to expect a "Happy Belated Birthday" from him? It's not like I'm -heaven forbid- actually asking him to get something for me.
Just three simple words.

I don't know why I like him this much.
He has never ever expressed an interest in me.
He's annoying and we don't speak much.
So why does my mind keep wandering to him?

Mood: Rejected
Music: We Are - Ana Johnson

:3
Friday, 25 April 2008 @ 19:13

God, everyone was so frickin' nice to me at school today.
Thanks for all the hugs and "happy birthday"s I got from everyone.
Specially' to Addy, Audrey, Andrea [the AAA Batteries XD], Rachel, HuiYing, JiaYi and Yanling and the person who bought the balloons ;D
Darn sweet (:

I know I ought to be mugging but it's a FRIDAY.
I can never mug on fridays.
FOB and Paramore songs course through my blood and sitting still seems pretty much impossible.

Mood: Thoughtful
Music: Beat It - Fall Out Boy

Happy Birthday to me.
Thursday, 24 April 2008 @ 19:57

I'll be thirteen tomorrow.
One-Three.
My favourite number.

But I feel nothing.

It was awful nice of everyone to wish me happy birthday in advance today.
Thank you, everyone (:
ILU <3

I was kinda wishing for some sort of Happy Birthday from a certain guy but so far, nothing. Give me a couple of days and I'll probably still have the same answer.
I don't think I'm being overly pessimistic here.
But whatever.
My birthday's only tomorrow.
And tomorrow's just another day.

Mood: Numb
Music: Don't Cry For Pain - Ana Johnson

Complain Queen
Thursday, 17 April 2008 @ 21:07

I've got a ton to post about but my brain can't seem to compose a single comprehensible sentence.
I blame the inane amount of stuff going on in my life.
Tests, guy issues and algebraic sums - all the stuff teens are made of.

So forgive me if I start rambling.
As they say, "Once you start, you can't stop".

What the hell's your problem with me?
Did I offend you or something?
And why the -censored- do you two talk about me like I'm not there, completely within hearing distance.
Did it not occur to you that the only reason I haven't asked you to keep your damn comments to yourself is that I've got problems shutting the lid once it's open?
And yeah - I AM referring to anger management issues here.
Eff' you XP

God, sometimes it takes all I've got not to lash out at you.
You sit there, muttering away useless comments to yourself.
How you were so much better than someone else in a certain thing.
Or how 'emo' you are today.
You and that guy both take being 'emo' so sodding flippantly.
I assure you, neither one of you is 'emo'.
Just a pair of kids who take everything for granted.
-does the Middle Finger-

Mood: Cranky & Unbalanced
Music: Ordinary - Train

Nightmare or fowl?
Monday, 14 April 2008 @ 19:37

Didn't go to school today.
I'd like to say I feel bad, but I'd just be lying to myself.

Had the weirdest dream this morning [FYI: I woke up, ate breakfast, then went back to sleep o.0].
My parents and Myra weren't home so me and some unknown friend were hanging out. Suddenly, there's this ghostly bird that looks sort of like a sparrow knocking on my window. I get this scary vibe from it, like it's a messenger of a ghost or something.
It flies in through a little gap and I chase it around the room, finally crushing it like a fly against my cabinet. Strangely, only the breast, legs and tail are flattened. For a moment, it disappears and another one like it is outside my window again.
I rush to close the window, terribly scared and screaming at it not to come in.

My friend runs to help me and the bird remarks that she knows how my friend killed a bird called Rosie and would like to avenge her death. I turn to look at my friend and get the shock of my life.

She's giggling uncontrollably and her pupils have dilated. There's a certain air of madness around her and I try shaking her to her senses. It doesn't work, though.

The sparrow starts to laugh manically and says, "Oh ho. I have found another way in." It dissolves and I widen my eyes in realization of what it means. Dashing down the staircase, I secure as many gaps as I can but nothing seems to work. For some strange reason, I think that I have a wand. Memories of a past accident where the wand kept the bird ghost away surface and I try desperately to find it in my room.

That's where I wake up.

I know my powers of description don't do the nightmare justice but take it from me: It's much scarier than it sounds.

Mood: Spooked
Music: J-Tusk - Daphne Khoo

What do you get when you cross a girl with a cold?
Sunday, 13 April 2008 @ 15:52

I don't know who gave me this but I HATE YOU >.<
Bloody cough-sore throat-cold-thingy.

Annnndddd, the Math test is tomorrow.
Kim+Mathematics+studying=total frustration

Eurgh.

Mood: Sick
Music: Name - Goo Goo Dolls

Thursday, 10 April 2008 @ 21:11

I've been mugging like mad lately so there I haven't exactly[e-zackly] had time to blog.
That explains my lack of posts.

In any case, there's not much t' blog about.
It's like, CL letter-writing, map-reading, elements of art, algebra equations and the acid/alkali thing.
So so boring.

Quote of the day: Love isn't finding someone you can live with but someone you can't live without.
I think I can relate :3

Mood: Studying
Music: Thriller - FOB

Stressed and Maxed Out
Thursday, 3 April 2008 @ 20:18

Broke down yesterday in front of my mum while doing maths sums.
It was more than embarrassing.
The sniffling and tears were uncontrollable.
And it's because of the stupidest reason ever: TOO MUCH STRESS.
How lame is that?

Current Schedule for this Week(similar to others)
Monday: Stay back till 6' for Art Club & Reach home at 7'. Eat dinner, shower, finish homework [usually round' 10-something] and then sleep.

Tuesday: As far as possible, go home straight away. Reach home at 3'. Have lunch. Go for tuition. Come back at 6'. Eat, shower, finish homework, revise a bit and sleep.

Wednesday: Stay back till 6' for SYF art thing/SC Detention Duty. Reach home at 7'. Eat, shower, finish homework and sleep.

Thursday: Go home straight away. Eat lunch. Finish homework. Go for tuition. Reach home at 6'. Eat, shower, study and sleep.

Friday: Stay back till 6' for Sports Day. Reach home at 7-ish. Eat, shower, finish MOST homework, relax.

Saturday: Wake up at 6.45 for Malay Convo. Prog. Finish it at 10.30am. Go home, eat, shower, head for Art class. Have dinner somewhere. Shop a bit. Go home round' 8'.

Sunday: Wake up at 6.45 for church. Finish catechism at 10.30am. Visit grandma. Have lunch. Go home, finish homework, exercise and then visit other grandma. Go home at 8.30, shower, pack bag and sleep.

Aside from my almost-daily ritual of watching Teen Titans, I basically have no time for a social life whatsoever.
The only thing that's keeping me going is seeing him on Sundays.
But I won't be surprised if he doesn't show up this week. He'll probably be too much of a coward to face me after the thing I told him.

Alright, I know this sounds cheesy but I swear: Victories don't taste as sweet without him as a 'rival'.
Apparently, I'm ranked #24 out of 240 Sec 1 students in ZHSS. How unbelievable is that?
Top 10% even though I did badly for Science & Maths.
It speaks volumes about the effort everyone didn't put in for the CA1s.

Today, I did the announcements and I screwed up so bad that the teacher IC actually came up to me and patted me on the back for a 'job well-done'.
Not that I don't like the encouragement, but it shows that the teachers realised how much I needed the encouragement.
And that isn't cool at all.

P.S Did I mention how unnecessarily melancholy I've been feeling about him lately?

Mood: Depressed?
Music: Sleep On It - Saving Jane

Him.
Sunday, 27 April 2008 @ 11:34

Yes, I was absolutely correct.
He didn't say a thing to me save for the whole "Why is your cousin doing homework during catechism" blah which even then, was said indirectly.
Was it too much of me to expect a "Happy Belated Birthday" from him? It's not like I'm -heaven forbid- actually asking him to get something for me.
Just three simple words.

I don't know why I like him this much.
He has never ever expressed an interest in me.
He's annoying and we don't speak much.
So why does my mind keep wandering to him?

Mood: Rejected
Music: We Are - Ana Johnson

:3
Friday, 25 April 2008 @ 19:13

God, everyone was so frickin' nice to me at school today.
Thanks for all the hugs and "happy birthday"s I got from everyone.
Specially' to Addy, Audrey, Andrea [the AAA Batteries XD], Rachel, HuiYing, JiaYi and Yanling and the person who bought the balloons ;D
Darn sweet (:

I know I ought to be mugging but it's a FRIDAY.
I can never mug on fridays.
FOB and Paramore songs course through my blood and sitting still seems pretty much impossible.

Mood: Thoughtful
Music: Beat It - Fall Out Boy

Happy Birthday to me.
Thursday, 24 April 2008 @ 19:57

I'll be thirteen tomorrow.
One-Three.
My favourite number.

But I feel nothing.

It was awful nice of everyone to wish me happy birthday in advance today.
Thank you, everyone (:
ILU <3

I was kinda wishing for some sort of Happy Birthday from a certain guy but so far, nothing. Give me a couple of days and I'll probably still have the same answer.
I don't think I'm being overly pessimistic here.
But whatever.
My birthday's only tomorrow.
And tomorrow's just another day.

Mood: Numb
Music: Don't Cry For Pain - Ana Johnson

Complain Queen
Thursday, 17 April 2008 @ 21:07

I've got a ton to post about but my brain can't seem to compose a single comprehensible sentence.
I blame the inane amount of stuff going on in my life.
Tests, guy issues and algebraic sums - all the stuff teens are made of.

So forgive me if I start rambling.
As they say, "Once you start, you can't stop".

What the hell's your problem with me?
Did I offend you or something?
And why the -censored- do you two talk about me like I'm not there, completely within hearing distance.
Did it not occur to you that the only reason I haven't asked you to keep your damn comments to yourself is that I've got problems shutting the lid once it's open?
And yeah - I AM referring to anger management issues here.
Eff' you XP

God, sometimes it takes all I've got not to lash out at you.
You sit there, muttering away useless comments to yourself.
How you were so much better than someone else in a certain thing.
Or how 'emo' you are today.
You and that guy both take being 'emo' so sodding flippantly.
I assure you, neither one of you is 'emo'.
Just a pair of kids who take everything for granted.
-does the Middle Finger-

Mood: Cranky & Unbalanced
Music: Ordinary - Train

Nightmare or fowl?
Monday, 14 April 2008 @ 19:37

Didn't go to school today.
I'd like to say I feel bad, but I'd just be lying to myself.

Had the weirdest dream this morning [FYI: I woke up, ate breakfast, then went back to sleep o.0].
My parents and Myra weren't home so me and some unknown friend were hanging out. Suddenly, there's this ghostly bird that looks sort of like a sparrow knocking on my window. I get this scary vibe from it, like it's a messenger of a ghost or something.
It flies in through a little gap and I chase it around the room, finally crushing it like a fly against my cabinet. Strangely, only the breast, legs and tail are flattened. For a moment, it disappears and another one like it is outside my window again.
I rush to close the window, terribly scared and screaming at it not to come in.

My friend runs to help me and the bird remarks that she knows how my friend killed a bird called Rosie and would like to avenge her death. I turn to look at my friend and get the shock of my life.

She's giggling uncontrollably and her pupils have dilated. There's a certain air of madness around her and I try shaking her to her senses. It doesn't work, though.

The sparrow starts to laugh manically and says, "Oh ho. I have found another way in." It dissolves and I widen my eyes in realization of what it means. Dashing down the staircase, I secure as many gaps as I can but nothing seems to work. For some strange reason, I think that I have a wand. Memories of a past accident where the wand kept the bird ghost away surface and I try desperately to find it in my room.

That's where I wake up.

I know my powers of description don't do the nightmare justice but take it from me: It's much scarier than it sounds.

Mood: Spooked
Music: J-Tusk - Daphne Khoo

What do you get when you cross a girl with a cold?
Sunday, 13 April 2008 @ 15:52

I don't know who gave me this but I HATE YOU >.<
Bloody cough-sore throat-cold-thingy.

Annnndddd, the Math test is tomorrow.
Kim+Mathematics+studying=total frustration

Eurgh.

Mood: Sick
Music: Name - Goo Goo Dolls

Thursday, 10 April 2008 @ 21:11

I've been mugging like mad lately so there I haven't exactly[e-zackly] had time to blog.
That explains my lack of posts.

In any case, there's not much t' blog about.
It's like, CL letter-writing, map-reading, elements of art, algebra equations and the acid/alkali thing.
So so boring.

Quote of the day: Love isn't finding someone you can live with but someone you can't live without.
I think I can relate :3

Mood: Studying
Music: Thriller - FOB

Stressed and Maxed Out
Thursday, 3 April 2008 @ 20:18

Broke down yesterday in front of my mum while doing maths sums.
It was more than embarrassing.
The sniffling and tears were uncontrollable.
And it's because of the stupidest reason ever: TOO MUCH STRESS.
How lame is that?

Current Schedule for this Week(similar to others)
Monday: Stay back till 6' for Art Club & Reach home at 7'. Eat dinner, shower, finish homework [usually round' 10-something] and then sleep.

Tuesday: As far as possible, go home straight away. Reach home at 3'. Have lunch. Go for tuition. Come back at 6'. Eat, shower, finish homework, revise a bit and sleep.

Wednesday: Stay back till 6' for SYF art thing/SC Detention Duty. Reach home at 7'. Eat, shower, finish homework and sleep.

Thursday: Go home straight away. Eat lunch. Finish homework. Go for tuition. Reach home at 6'. Eat, shower, study and sleep.

Friday: Stay back till 6' for Sports Day. Reach home at 7-ish. Eat, shower, finish MOST homework, relax.

Saturday: Wake up at 6.45 for Malay Convo. Prog. Finish it at 10.30am. Go home, eat, shower, head for Art class. Have dinner somewhere. Shop a bit. Go home round' 8'.

Sunday: Wake up at 6.45 for church. Finish catechism at 10.30am. Visit grandma. Have lunch. Go home, finish homework, exercise and then visit other grandma. Go home at 8.30, shower, pack bag and sleep.

Aside from my almost-daily ritual of watching Teen Titans, I basically have no time for a social life whatsoever.
The only thing that's keeping me going is seeing him on Sundays.
But I won't be surprised if he doesn't show up this week. He'll probably be too much of a coward to face me after the thing I told him.

Alright, I know this sounds cheesy but I swear: Victories don't taste as sweet without him as a 'rival'.
Apparently, I'm ranked #24 out of 240 Sec 1 students in ZHSS. How unbelievable is that?
Top 10% even though I did badly for Science & Maths.
It speaks volumes about the effort everyone didn't put in for the CA1s.

Today, I did the announcements and I screwed up so bad that the teacher IC actually came up to me and patted me on the back for a 'job well-done'.
Not that I don't like the encouragement, but it shows that the teachers realised how much I needed the encouragement.
And that isn't cool at all.

P.S Did I mention how unnecessarily melancholy I've been feeling about him lately?

Mood: Depressed?
Music: Sleep On It - Saving Jane